I Can Do All Things

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“There is nothing wrong with my legs.”

“There is nothing wrong with my legs.”

I was sitting in my shower chair, praying… praying for all that I’ve been through. For the second time today I thought to myself, “this is the price I have to pay. This is the price I have to pay for living.” Then I looked down at the bracelet that my Aunt Jackie gave me when I first got diagnosed. She bought one for herself as well, and she was still wearing it when I saw her for Thanksgiving. It reads, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”

I suddenly felt the need to stand up, to get out of my chair and just stand up on my own two legs. With His strength. With Him standing with me, I could finally get out of the chair that I’ve been relying on for so long because of weakness… and sickness… and so much more.

I did it. I stood up. And as the minutes passed, I was still standing. I felt the tightness in my legs but still I stood. Then, out of nowhere the thought came to me…

“There is nothing wrong with my legs.”

“There is nothing wrong with my legs.”

And I said it out loud. I said it out loud. There is nothing wrong with my legs. There is nothing wrong with my back, or my hips. There is nothing wrong with my heart. There is nothing wrong with my head. It’s just my lungs and the side effects from the chemotherapy.

Right there, I claimed that I was finally standing up. Standing up to cancer. Standing up to everything I’ve been through. Because if I’m still here fighting after almost 18 months, why not start believing that I can get through this. That I can beat this.

I’ll be honest, I haven’t been much of a fighter through this like some of you might think. I’ve just been taking it, slug after slug, beating after beating. I’ve still been that kid that got beat up over and over again by the neighborhood girls. Just standing there and letting it happen. I started speaking the words, “I’m standing up to cancer. I’m standing up to all of it.”

I stood there for so long that Nick came to check on me to make sure I was okay. Opening the curtain, he asked “why are you standing?” and I proudly responded…

“There is nothing wrong with my legs.”

“There is nothing wrong with my legs.”

My fight isn’t over. If anything, it’s actually just beginning because I’m not taking it face down anymore. I’m going to get stronger. I’m going to get my life back. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

 

 


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